Call the waaaaahmbulance

My apologies for having been unintentionally whiny on the Twitter for the last day or so; I didn’t mean to sound like the “boo hoo I’m sick” guy. You see, last week I got a sinus infection, which begat bronchitis, which at this point I believe begat walking pneumonia. Fun!

Now normally I’m not that whimpering type of sick person. If I’m injured or don’t feel well, l keep it to myself and work through it. If anything, I need to be spurting blood out of my eyeballs before I’ll even consider making an appointment with my doctor. But this weekend I’ve felt the need to mention it, if only out of frustration, and lack of anything else interesting or funny to say.

I have a ton of work to get done, and had planned on a full working weekend. But whatever it is that I have is literally knocking the life out of me, and it’s irritating as all hell. I want to be working, but I just don’t have the energy. And when I’m not working, I’m not happy. So I’m being petulant and cranky about it. I hate being on the couch, unable to do something worthwhile. “Immobile” is just not an acceptable state for me, even when I know it’s the right thing.

I’m also a bit angry at myself for getting sick in the first place. Yes, I know the original sinus infection was probably viral and not directly my fault. But I normally take excellent care of myself, and I’ve let that slip over the last two weeks. I’ve been working a little too hard. And I haven’t been running as much, working out as hard, eating as well, resting enough, or making enough time for any kind of leisure or downtime. So I can’t help but conclude that I ignored my normal safety mechanisms against excessive stress and overwork, and my body failed as a result.

Do you care? Of course you don’t. Then why am I writing about it? Because it was an easy way to bang out 375 words on an otherwise lost day, and now I can spend the rest of the afternoon on the couch, under the illusion that I did something productive.

posted 9/28/08 at 12:18pm to Me me me · 0 replies · permalink